Day 7 Blog Challange: If I Won The Lottery

Hmm, actually, this is a difficult question, because I never play lottery :D But I can imagine it wisely. If someday, I win the lottery, no matter how lot the number, I will share it to those who have more right than me to receive the money.  

No hypocrite. I need much money too. We all need much money, yes. I have sooo many needs as a human, correct. But, when you talk about 'mercy' as a humanitarian, this is what I had in mind. Let's look at them the elderly in nursing homes, or children with special needs around us, as well as I think it is wonderful to share with them all joy and happiness. I know, they are not trained to ask for money, or hoping for mercy from us. No. I am surely understand. However, as an example: for children with special needs, we can use that money for something more to educate and train their motor-nerves. They don't need much money to show you that they are happy. If you are asking them: how you feel today? I am sure, they will show you how happy they are. With what? With their smile that they will give to you. How simple to be mercy for other, No? Than I spend that money on a toast with friends or fill my shopping chart with many stuff. You know, that man is born to pursue satisfaction, and to which you pursue worldly satisfaction, when will you be satisfied? Isn't that depend on humanity and gratitude that you have? 

I also want to build a counseling place for assaulted women and children. A place without judgment, a place to recover their physical and mental trauma, a place to warm them as 'precious human', a place to develop their skills and provide them a better education about 'mercy'. I think we all can provide encouragement and support for their mental development, so that they are able to survive in the future. Believe me, it's not easy to build their confident after all.

Regards,

Bening Rahardjo

Day 5 Blog Challange: 25-Love-Songs I Love! (List of Dream Wedding Song) ^^

1. Why Do You Love Me - Sandy Sandoro
2. Because You Loved Me - Celine Dion
3. A Woman Like You - Lee Brice
4. From This Moment - Shania Twain
5. Unbreak My Heart - Toni Braxton
6. A Whiter Shade of Pale - Michael Bolton
7. Tell Me - Side A
8. Looking Through Your Eyes - Leann Rimes
9. Marry Your Daughter - Brian McKnight
10.Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You - Goerge Benson
11. How Do I Live Without You - Trisha Yearwood
12. Hello (is it me you looking for?) - Lionel Richie 
13. Endless Love - Lionel Richie ft Diana Ross
14. We Could Be in Love - Lea Salonga ft Brad Kane
15. Starting Over Again - Natalie Cole
16. The Gift - Jim Brickman
17. I Wanna Grow Old With You - Westlife
18. Tonight I Celebrate My Love - Peabo Bryson ft Roberta Flack
19. Beauty and The Beast - Celine Dion ft Peabo Bryson
20. A Whole New World - Peabo Bryson ft Regina Belle
21. I Wanna Take Forever Tonight - Peter Cetera ft Crystal Bernard
22. God Gave Me You - Bryn White
23. Just Tell Me You Love Me - England Dan ft John Ford Coley
24. My Valentine -  Martina McBride ft Jim Brickman
25. I Do - Colbie Caillat

Day 4 Blog Challange: My Favorite Quote

"What you give is What you get return"                                                                          (Bening Rahardjo)

We Could Be in Love

By: Lea Salonga ft Brad Kane

Day 3 Blog Challange: What Things I Afraid Of...

There are some things I afraid of...

1. Being in dark and small place, such like: cave, a dark room, anonymity.

2. Driving alone in the deserted road.

3. Chicken (I've been attacked by a chicken until my skirt ripped).

4. Swan (I've been attacked by a swan too, OMG -____-).

5. Betrayed/cheated by the people I love.

6. People sneaking when I sleep. 

7. People with their delusional. 

 Regards,

Bening Rahardjo
 

Day 2 Blog Challange: 20 Facts About Me

Okaaay, so #20FactsAboutMe is trending now, and I got tagged by my friend. Now, I wanna share to you all #20FactsAboutMe, here there are:

1. I have published several posts and articles under the pseudonym, "Bening Rahardjo", which is 'Bening' adopted from my nickname and 'Rahardjo' from father-clan-name. And just for sure, I really love my nickname, Bening. People say it sounds unique.

2. I am twenty-something-years old woman and single. With a bit spicy flavor in my romance story. Well...I am a woman, but an unlucky girl. I am a survivor for my illness and my bad-hole-past. I prefer to admire the sun-rising than the sunset (saya lebih suka menatap matahari terbit daripada menikmati langit senja). Just for sure, I don't like 'dark place' anymore. Saya nggak suka kegelapan. I always think that 'the dark' could rise 'the nightmare'. 

3. I am not an arrogant, self-centered, chauvinistic or something. But I stand for every words I said. Then you call me 'a-high-principle'? No. Just know me better, then judge me :)

4. I am humanitarian, yet sensitive about assaulted 'women and children' topic. FYI, I often overreact to this topic. I love advocacy, especially an active espousal for women and children. For me, even just a word, advocacy won't be silence.

5. I am not genius IQ nor bloody-photographic-memory. I am just still learning.

6. I have lovely pet, turtles named Tora and Sasha. And a baby-ornamental-fish named Milo. I adopted them since their was 5 months, but then Sasha and Milo died. Tora still alive until now he is about 5 years old :))

7. I ever got accident twice in one night with my motorcycle, and both caused by the traffic light.

8. I am Basketball lovers: NBA-NBL Indonesia-WNBL Indonesia. Just a fan of Pau Gasol and A.C.Green. Omg, Pau, he's so damn sexy!! And so did to Kelly Purwanto aaaaakkk *melted* I ever got injured on my knee because played basketball when I was at college.

9. I am a freak for purple-green-yellow color! I have many collection of hijab and unique-accessories: necklace and bracelet. 
 
10. I graduated from Communication Science, Gadjah Mada University, Yogyakarta. With terrible effort, with terrible years too. I ever worked as Enumerator and as Creative Team at one public radio at Yogyakarta to survived as long as 5 years.

11. I am Miss Wordsmith, I love toxic in my creative process, like a fricking-inspiration-words in my fairly-inspirational-pyrotechnics at fantasia-lala-land.

12. Sensitive-super-moody yet too-much-blind-panic-person too. Hell to the O, I had many stupid circumstance because this blind-panic. But I feel completely in control when I am being Miss Wordsmith to person I love.

13. When I cook, it often feels salty. My sisters and brothers often complained me. Lol. And I like to drink Ultra-Milk UHT.

14. In love with genius-billionaire-philanthropist-man. In love with autumn. In love with the smell of air when rain comes. In love with the blue water and the beach. In love with tea and honey. In love with red lipstick :)

15. Addicted with my super-mate: The Red Ants

16. I am simple woman with big dreams, and my dream car is Classic Mini Cooper with its purple color.

17. I ever got kicked out of math class because came too late (2 hour after lesson has started).

18. I ever took a wrong train from Yogyakarta to Purwokerto without ticket too. I cried and begged to the conductor, it was soooooo stupid thing ever. 

19.  I am bookwarm and movieholic. I am fan of Derek Hale, he's so damn HOT werewolf!!

20. I don't like shopping-mall or being in a small store with crowd people there.


That's all 20 Facts About Me :)
Regards

Xoxo

Paranoia

"There's a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything, but it's not giving up. It's only realizing that you don't need certain people and their crap! It's like once you've been hurt, you're so scared to get attached again."

                                                                           -Me

Light of The Tunnel

Kenapa dan kenapa.

Aku dan kau, kita selalu bertanya tentang kenapa.
Apakah kita telah lupa kepada Alkemis yang mengajarkan bahasa universal, sehingga kita perlu bertanya? 
Apakah kita lupa ketika Socrates yang mengajarkan cinta kepada Plato, sehingga kita selalu menyangsikan?
Kau tahu Tuan, cinta selalu menarik untuk dikecap, meski hanya dengan rindu.
Terlalu manis seperti racun yang membasahi darah.
Kau tahu Tuan, kebetulan bukanlah kata benda dalam kamusku.
Itulah yang diajarkan alam, bahasa kosmik.
Bahkan ketika kita tidak mengharap untuk tak percaya, bukankah selalu tak ada pengingkaran?
Kau tahu Tuan, keresahan setiap aku-kamu-kita datang dalam percikan-percikan kecil yang mewarnai hari.
Kuartikan itu sebagai pemanis penikmat rasa, bukankah begitu yang diwejangkan Socrates juga?
Tak perlu mencari.

Kenapa kita harus ciut untuk menyambut cakrawala?
Kau tahu Tuan, perempuan ini selalu menyimpan rasa pada angin laut.
Seperti menyimpan beribu kenangan dalam benaknya.
Entah luka entah merajam, entah tawa entah bahagia.
Kau tahu Tuan, perempuan ini mencintai hujan tanpa sebab, tanpa syarat.
Seperti saat ia menerima kedatanganmu, yang tak pernah disangka arahnya.
Kau tahu Tuan, perempuan ini begitu sangat egois,
Bahkan ketika menghamburkan kata 'sayang' untukmu, tak pernah ingin dibagi.
Kau tahu Tuan, perempuan ini begitu sangat rentan,
Meski bersembunyi dalam benteng kokoh, toh dekapanmu ia anggukan juga.

Tuan, kasihku itu tidak berpetualang.
Tenanglah.
Ia masih di situ-situ saja, menunggu Tuan-nya untuk merengkuh.
Untuk dua puluh enam tahun sekian hari, tidaklah rumit menjajaki rindu.
Untuk tiga puluh satu tahun sekian hari, tidaklah rumit memahami dinamika universal.
Kau-aku-kita.
Tinggal berkata kepada alam: nyanyikan lagu amin dengan perona.
Somehow, we just have to believe that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Ini bukan tentang cerita 'Lorong Gelap Tak Bercahaya'.
Maka, bersabarlah Tuan.
Alam pun menjanjikan, ini tidak akan lama.



Regards,

Bening Rahardjo

I Wanna Grow Old With You

Whaddup! Do you still remember "UP" movie? in which there is an interesting story about Carl and Ellie. The story begins from how they met, then they get married and grow old. Interesting when Ellie and Carl both want to fulfill their dreams together, which is an "adventure" to a place that had been their wish to visit, even though in the end Ellie dies first. However, in 'unconscious', even Ellie and Carl have started their "dream-adventure" from the first moment they met. Films that tucked in this film is such a beautiful and touching story. More beautiful, when Carl and Ellie's story is put together with the music 'I Wanna Grow Old With You' by Westlife.

There is a beautiful sentence in this song I really like:

"Things can come and go, I know but baby I believe, something burning strong between us makes it clear to me"

Here the short-movie of Carl and Ellie with the music of 'I Wanna Grow Old With You', enjoy it!

For its comparasion, I also like this version, the story of Carl and Ellie with music 'Nothing's Gonna Change My Life for You' by Westlife too. But here's, cutting of the movie in the end is not proper with end of music. But you can see when the sentence 'If the road ahead is not so easy....Our love will lead the way for us...Like a guiding star....I'll be there for you if you should need me...And you don't have to change the thing....I love you just the way you are' Please take a look at the story, it's perfect suit with condition when Ellie convicted she could not have a baby, but Carl with his indulgent, gave all love to his wife.

Please check the short-movie, and enjoy it!

Regards,

Bening

Marry Your Daughter

By: Brian McKnight

(Animation version)

"Kita" dan Jengah

"Kita" adalah penyakit menahun yang dibiarkan tanpa tindakan terlalu lama.
"Kita" adalah penundaan yang berujung penyesalan.
"Kita" sudah menjadi kata yang terlalu jauh untuk dipanggil pulang.
"Kita" hanya harapan yang diupayakan oleh jingkat-jingkat kecil meragu. 

"Kita" hanya tangis lirih di lorong-lorong sepi.

"Kita" hanyalah tali terputus yang tak ingin dirajut lagi.

"Kita" layak dijalani tapi meminta ditinggalkan dengan nyali.

Tapi,

"Kita" juga masih menjadi candu yang tak reda-reda juga.

Pada akhirnya, hujan selalu punya cerita tentang "kita".

Bahwa ia yang diupayakan tidak selalu akan datang. 

Tetapi ia yang tertakdirkan tak akan pernah ingkar janji.

regards,


-br-

Women Are Not Moody?

"Ning, lu ada masalah apa sih? Lu akhir-akhir ini banyak berubah, gak kayak biasanya. Di fb lu juga nyuekin kita-kita."

Well! Secara jujur, gw juga gak ngerti kenapa siang ini si Benny tiba-tiba sms gw dengan pertanyaan begitu seriusnya, which is dalam hidup dia itu jarang banget ngomong serius sama gw di sms. Mereka, para lelaki sahabat terdekat gw itu hanya akan mem-bully gw tiap ngobrol, via sms, socmed, ataupun face to face. Dalam kamus bahasa jawa gaul, bully di sini lebih tepat disebut ngecrohi a.k.a ngerecokin. Entah, gw sendiri bingung ngejawab pertanyaan itu. Sebenernya gak ada apa-apa juga sih, maksudnya nggak ada kaitannya sama mereka sahabat-sahabat gw itu. Gw sangat-sangat menghargai persahabatan. Gw cenderung diem kalo udah urusan mood. Mood gw suka naik turun ala makhluk Cancer yang super duper moody emang. Termasuk salah satunya mood gw untuk nulis di personal blog ini yang rada turun gara-gara salah satu komentar makhluk-sok-tahu-dan-sok-ngerti-tentang-dunia-web, o-em-ji! Sibuk banget sih ngrusuhin orang lain. Oh, mate! Come on! Mending gih lo produktif yee nulis dan bikin advokasi sendiri, daripada cuma ngurusin gw. It's not your business. Tapi, daripada ngurusin orang yang sibuk nyacat dan nyirik sama kita, mending ngurus mereka-mereka yang benar-benar tulus bersahabat sama kita. 

Emm, beberapa hari lalu, Bill Madden ngirim email ke gw (lagi!!), kali ini intinya sih pujian untuk foto gw -___- dan nanyain kenapa gw jarang ngeposting lagi di sini, haha, you know me Bill! Tapi senang sih ketika ada seseorang yang sangat menginspirasi kita, kemudian orang itu memuji kita dan mengatakan bahwa kita 'fabulous enough' untuk menginspirasi dia juga. Rasanya melayang dapat compliment kayak gitu. Gw terinspirasi banget ketika beberapa tahun yang lampau sewaktu gw masih duduk di bangku kuliah dan gw secara tidak sengaja menemukan advokasi dia tentang women's right. Then, Tuhan itu memang Maha Baik! Di tahun ini, secara tidak terencana dan tidak disengaja pula, Bill ngebaca salah satu advokasi gw di Voice of Youth, ngebuka site ini dan menemukan beberapa tulisan yang dia bilang 'cukup menginspirasi' dia. Lalu dia ngirimin email ke gw secara person to person. God, tell me if I was wrong. Tapi pujian Bill itu luar biasa bikin gw semangat. Ngebayangin gimana dulu gw terkagum-kagum sama pemikiran-pemikiran dia, eh sekarang dia ngasih pujian buat gw. Ngebayangin untuk bisa berelasi sama dia aja nggak pernah, malah dia yang nge-fudul-in gw di twitter dan menemukan account gw, bahkan langsung di-follow. Waaw! Crazy thing but happened. 

Yah, balik lagi, gw sempat vakum nulis beberapa saat  karena hal-hal yang bikin gw annoying too much gara-gara omongan salah satu orang tadi. But then, gw udah normal sih sekarang. A bit. Ok, diusahakan untuk produktif lagi, bukan cuma nyampah tentang mood ecek-ecek seperti yang lagi kalian baca ini. Ok deh sampai ketemu di postingan lain--yang lebih berkualitas, janji.

Regards,

Bening

Pathetic Fans

First, sometimes ago when I got high fever, I ever dreamed ride the same bicycle with Lamar Odom around the park. Three days ago, so eager to see these two: A.C.Green 'The Ironman' and Magic Johnson, then I had dream whereas I catch them to airport, take pictures with them and get their signature. Well... fans are pathetic somehow :'(((

God, I really want to meet this legend...

Regards,

BENING

Bored

BORED!!!

Looking Through Your Eyes

"Looking Through Your Eyes"
By: Leann Rimes

Look at the sky
Tell me what do you see
Just close your eyes
And describe it to me
The heavens are sparkling
With starlight tonight
That's what I see
Through your eyes
I see the heavens
Each time that you smile
I hear your heartbeat
Just go on for miles
And suddenly I know
My life is worth while
That's what I see
Through your eyes

Here in the night
I see the sun
Here in the dark
Our two hearts are one
It's out of our hands
We can't stop what we have begun
And love just took me by surprise
Looking through your eyes
I look at myself
And instead I see us
Whoever I am now
It feels like enough
And I see a girl
Who is learning to trust
That's who I see through your eyes

And there are some things we don't know
Sometimes a heart just needs to go
And there is so much I'll remember
Underneath the open sky with you forever

QuoteOfTheDay: 8.9.14

"Tidakkah engkau menaruh percaya kepada waktu? Yang padahal waktu itu sungguh ada pada Kuasa-NYA. Dan apabila DIA berkuasa menggenggam waktu, apalagi dengan hati ini. Lalu mengapa engkau risau?"

QuoteOfTheDay:7-9-14

"I love a man with a great sense of humor and who is intelligent--a man who has a great smile--He has to make me laugh. I like a man who is very ambitious and driven and who has a good heart and makes me feel safe. I like a man who is very strong and independent and confident--that is very sexy--but at the same time, he's very kind to people."

                - Nicole Scherzinger

QuoteOfTheDay: 6.9.14

"Just to remind you, Cinderella never asked for a prince, she just asked for a night off and a dress. If she danced and loved by a prince, it is just bonuses above her wishes. You know, that was her luck."

 

QuoteOfTheDay: 01.09.14

"Kakak yang baik, teman yang seru, suami yang memimpin, lawan debat yang romantis, tutor yang cerdas, superhero yang tangguh, pendengar yang setia, penghayal yang gila. Sepaket :)"